I used to think my grandmother's hands looked like they had green worms; the blood vessels stuck up all gnarly through her paper skin. My hands were different. Soft. Smooth.
I didn't know that my hands would become my grandmother's one day, but today I can see that they are. Skin stretches across bone - and are those the hints of my own worms beginning to show? Hmmm... I'm so glad. I miss my grandmother. But she's slowly coming back to me. As me.
Just yesterday I looked at my own hands and thought, "Wow, these look just like my Dad's hands looked, when I was a kid."
ReplyDeleteGreen worms on your hand? More like a map of life?
ReplyDeleteYour comments on your grandmother today and the wind yesteerday reminded me of my own grandmother. She used to say of the wind when it was blowing hard "I don't know where it's come from but I know where it's going!"
Funny what you remember - she always used to say too that if there was enought blue sky to make a sailor's pair of trousers then it would be a good day. (I never did know just HOW much it would take to make those trousers and am still figuring out the size of the sailor)
I've rambled. Hope you are feeling heaps better.
Thomas,
ReplyDeleteWeird, huh? Who woulda thought?
Dancing,
ReplyDeleteI bet there's some ancient wisdom in your grandmother's sayings that I am not up for understanding at this time of my life. (Where DID she get that sailor idea???)
Hmmm... Gotta go study my map of life and see where I've been and where I'm going.
Getting better all of the time! Thanks for your good wishes!
nicely put!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Wayfarer!
ReplyDeleteI just read all the wonderful posts here, Carol, and I'd like to write something on all of them. [You're in the Reader now, so I'll be better about checking in.] Anyway, this post just hit me like a load of bricks because I've had a same exact thought frequently. I would have written it just as you did, although I did not have the powerful insight you concluded with--she is back as me. It brings tears to my eyes.
ReplyDeleteOh, B.E.,
ReplyDeleteThis is one of the nicest comments I've received on my blogs. Thank you! You really helped me to see that we are ALL so deeply connected to our ancestors and, ultimately, to each other.
Thank you!
(And thanks for taking the time to read my posts!)