They'll Have To Do It Without Me

I have stood in vigils for peace since the build-up to the war with Iraq in 2003.  Nine years.  I started a Women in Black vigil in my town over seven years ago.  I figure that I stood for peace for at least 350 hours, just in that vigil alone.  It has been a powerful and moving experience for me - in so many ways. 

And today I quit.

I won't go into the details of my crazy decision-making ways.  I will just say that, while on my most recent retreat, which you can read a little about here, it became very clear to me that I was done.  I know that when I hear a voice inside telling me to do or not do something, it's very wise to pay attention. 

It will be strange to have nothing scheduled in the middle of the day on Saturdays.  But you know what they say about a vacuum...

I don't know what will replace my commitment to the Women in Black vigil.  I'm thinking that it needs to be something very life-affirming.  Something that speaks to our commonality as humans and gives us joy, no matter our politics, our religion, our nationality, or anything else. 

I feel smiley inside just thinking about that!